Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Gerhard Richter

I've known Richter's paintings since I watched this. I thought they mostly looked like this.

And now I'm freaking out because TODAY I figured out they also look like this and like this and like this.

holymotherlode. I am about to burst.

I think these are what I was trying to do with my passenger series. These make me want to be a better painter.

Friday, December 12, 2014

Passenger Series

My explanation to the owner of these five paintings: Passenger---how I experience a steady but quickly passing beauty, a rush to take it all in, a hyper reality transfixed in a temporal moment. Or is it a temporal moment transfixed in hyper reality? The way I see, in general---and also about my transition as a mother with my daughter right now...don't blink. But there's a peaceful resolve over all of it. It's just how this lifetime is. I am always grateful for beautiful moments frozen in time.

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

St. Vincent Kick

If the truth/ideas experienced/expressed in these songs do not in any way resonate with your experience, they might be activating/disparaging. But I have heard St. Vincent herself say, "They do not have to be disparaging"---and I believe her wholeheartedly.

St. Vincent completely nails the love and anguish found in both experiences. 

Ps)I get to hear her sing these songs live in a few weeks. She opens for the Black Keys in Ok.

Wednesday, December 3, 2014

Nov/Dec Projects

The cold weather kills my desire to head out back to the studio. I do still love that space. Last Sunday I just went out there and sat. I had no desire (I have been flu/cold sick) to pick up a brush or soldering pick. I just sat and listened to Alpha wave inducing music, toasty under my new, fuzzy purple blanket from Andria. When Chloe came out to check on me I made a silly, but true statement, "I want to live in a culture with no subjunctive clause." The ultimate brain vacation. I should be able to do that wherever in the world I find myself living. Anyhow, the absoluteness of it all might really hurt my curious brain.

I have started a new painting. It has a similar feel to Grotesque Ethereal. I do hope I end up loving it as much as that one. I've never disliked a painting more at the beginning only to love it the most in the end. So, I thought I'd push the limits of that process again. I have forgotten to photograph it thus far.

I have finished this painting. It was supposed to be picked up over Thanksgiving but now I get to keep it until Christmas. It's a good thing. I added that vertical branch coming from the top down to the middle of the tree today. It needed more on that limb. Now it's just right.

I continue to work the 4'X4' giant canvas below. It has been two subjects (both with flooding and rainbows and metaxis) and worked and reworked since 2011. Even if I did have the money/space to have two 4X4 canvases lying around, I probably would have painted over the girl anyhow. For me, the second image heals in a more authentic, truthful way. Tonight it remains the most settled this canvas has been for to me. All that remains is for me to lean in to it. I suppose I will keep it in my living room until the perfect someone/space becomes available for it.
(This is what is now completely buried underneath the paint on the canvas below)
I have also been working on two jewelry projects for two different friends. I keep screwing them up. Ordering more parts, screwing those parts up, etc. It's nice to have paintings to turn to for awhile when that happens.

Also, after studying the two Marsden Hartley (He painted the earliest one from memory/imagination, and one as he remembered/reworked it) still life florals in the Modern exhibit at WAM, I have a strong desire to paint a still life.

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

Higher Love

Heard this on my way to work this morning. Threw me back---and then moved me forward. Great Message. Plus, Chaka Kahn.

Friday, November 28, 2014



William Ernest Henley
Out of the night that covers me,   
  Black as the Pit from pole to pole, 
I thank whatever gods may be   
  For my unconquerable soul.

 In the fell clutch of circumstance 
  I have not winced nor cried aloud. 
 Under the bludgeonings of chance   
  My head is bloody, but unbowed. 

 Beyond this place of wrath and tears   
  Looms but the Horror of the shade, 
 And yet the menace of the years   
  Finds, and shall find, me unafraid. 

 It matters not how strait the gate,   
  How charged with punishments the scroll, 
 I am the master of my fate:
  I am the captain of my soul.

Saturday, November 15, 2014

Bloody Stump Leg

What do you see when you watch this? How does it change you? Record your response, and then read the rest of this post. Really. How you react to this will tell you something (perhaps lots) about yourself. 
I get real excited when a famous artist goes Meta. This elaborate production makes use of the misplaced power/voice Shia has been charged with. Shia is deep, and making himself available to do stuff like this (while at first glance appears to be its narcissistic opposite) calls the absurd vanity out of us all. We are the ones who put him on the pedestal to begin with....

Rob Cantor, even your blunt homepage makes me geek out! What a great metamodern production! So great.

What would we do with all that fame, power and money? Let's hope we'd be this responsible...but I doubt it. After all, how many other celebs do you see poking themselves with their own golden stick? I have to wonder who financed this.

So funny/light and yet such a serious/meaningful undertone. An excellent contrast begging us to hold multiple beliefs in one experience. "Go forth and oscillate", indeed.

Monday, November 3, 2014

Art Council Awards (and link city!)

Last Thursday night Chloe was honored with the Youth Recognition Award from the Wichita Arts Council. (She and Mason were the only two teenagers there!) Back during the summer Christopher Gulick called me and asked about nominating her. He wrote this raving letter about my girl's character, talent, dedication and professionalism. (He worked with her at WAM and met her when I did the Mother's day Art and Book Fair of which he was in charge.) Of course I loved the idea of my daughter getting nominated---much less by someone whose metal work I have admired for quiet a while! (I actually met Christopher Gulick while he was building the wire system that held up the Mandala slide holders for the Secrets of Suburbia show in January.)

Well, she won, so we were invited to a great, fancy evening! Chloe and I were able to meet and re-meet some people/artists we're both pretty amazed by. Another winner, John Harrison, had the interactive touch wall at the Secrets of Suburbia show for which I painted the mandalas. Kristen Beal also won an award---she, too, had the blue-green water shadow piece in the SOS show. My friend Kylie won an award for CreativeRush---and she was the curator for the SOS show. After the show we headed to Knobfest to watch UJ in the Wrong Kata Trio where I had the pleasure of chatting with another of the award winners, Mark Foley (Knobfest is his brainchild).

I guess 2014 has been a year for getting outside of my tiny studio. ...and I just love that my girl is even opening more doors for me.
This girl's grandparents...always supportive.

After 6 weeks of no surgeries on Thursdays, Cody was bombed with 7. In Garden City. Midway through the awards he texted us a sad face. This was Coco's response back to him.

At our table: Mason, Clouds, Thiessens, Mr. McCandlies (teacher, not pictured)), Courtney Spousta (Chloe's boss from WAM) and Mrs. Jansen (teacher)

Kylie Brown accepts the CreativeRush award. Visionary genius.
24 hours later, Chloe's Halloween makeup was to die for....
If you click on none of the links above, at least click on Christopher Gulick's site. Eye Candy Heaven!

Sunday, November 2, 2014

Correspondence Note Sets

Chloe and I have a lot to be grateful for these days and want to send special Thank You notes to a few people.

I've been itching for expensive stationary ever since I saw these HERMES postcards in Elle Decor last month. A little closer to my reality, I spent a few minutes dreaming over the Crane paper sets at American Stationary...still found myself crying over the price tag...and then decided to put these note card sets together from some of the marbled ledger paper I made a while back. They aren't $100 silk, but I know I'd love to get one of these pretty things in the mail! (Last time I made stationary was a little over three years ago.)

Do you see the two birds on the front of this card?

They look so pretty in the lined and leafed envelopes!

Friday, October 31, 2014

Finished and Signed

 It seems only fitting that these two pieces should emerge from the studio together, finished on the same day. Both have this beautiful blue-green-purple analogous color scheme. I was adding the final layer of dioxazine purple to the canvas (while talking on the phone with my Aunt K :)) when I decided to take  brush to the ring. It might not be a "real" patina (this is almost impossible to get after the stone is set---or at least it's unknown to me) but I can always re-paint it.

The painting is going to Arizona. It will hang in an office on the Apache Indian reservation in the mountains. 
The Amethyst/Aquamarine stone was purchased at White Light bookstore in KC.

 For those of you who want to see the back of the ring---and the real patina on the earlier steps.